I feel better already.
May. 27th, 2003 02:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kodalaiI've quit the sales job I took last... was it really only last Tuesday? Wow. It feels like so much longer than a week, so much stuff happening.
I told my boss that I was quitting because doing sales presentations made me feel too uncomfortable, but that was actually not the reason at all. I was fine with the demos and presentations. But I didn't think it would be very diplomatic to tell her that it was her, and the company, that was driving me crazy and to tears. (I spontaneously burst into tears four times in the course of three days, invariably after coming back from a meeting with her.)
There was just so much about the job that I was only finding out after the fact. All those hidden demands and obligations that I just couldn't deal with right now, and as the training went on it was more and more about how to trick and manipulate people, and this was one of the more ethical sales companies I've ever encountered. Sigh.
So I guess I'm not suited for sales after all. At first I didn't think that was the case, because I was okay with the actual sales part of the job; it was the company that was upsetting me. But, well, that *is* sales. And I just can't deal with it.
Incidentally, I actually went into my boss' office and told her I was going to quit, and assured her that I would clear up all the loose ends and obligations. I think that most of the trainees who quit didn't do that, because she seemed surprised and pleased and tried very hard to talk me out of it. But, I was determined not to change my mind. She's a salesman, and she'd sold me the job in the first place. She wanted to sell me on her company again, and I didn't want to buy.
On the up side, I am still getting paid -- more than a hundred dollars for a weekend's work, which isn't bad. Plus I get to keep the sample kit.
So, now I'm looking for a job again. One that doesn't follow me home, try and take over my life and my mind, and try to turn me into a time-managing super-achiever.
I told my boss that I was quitting because doing sales presentations made me feel too uncomfortable, but that was actually not the reason at all. I was fine with the demos and presentations. But I didn't think it would be very diplomatic to tell her that it was her, and the company, that was driving me crazy and to tears. (I spontaneously burst into tears four times in the course of three days, invariably after coming back from a meeting with her.)
There was just so much about the job that I was only finding out after the fact. All those hidden demands and obligations that I just couldn't deal with right now, and as the training went on it was more and more about how to trick and manipulate people, and this was one of the more ethical sales companies I've ever encountered. Sigh.
So I guess I'm not suited for sales after all. At first I didn't think that was the case, because I was okay with the actual sales part of the job; it was the company that was upsetting me. But, well, that *is* sales. And I just can't deal with it.
Incidentally, I actually went into my boss' office and told her I was going to quit, and assured her that I would clear up all the loose ends and obligations. I think that most of the trainees who quit didn't do that, because she seemed surprised and pleased and tried very hard to talk me out of it. But, I was determined not to change my mind. She's a salesman, and she'd sold me the job in the first place. She wanted to sell me on her company again, and I didn't want to buy.
On the up side, I am still getting paid -- more than a hundred dollars for a weekend's work, which isn't bad. Plus I get to keep the sample kit.
So, now I'm looking for a job again. One that doesn't follow me home, try and take over my life and my mind, and try to turn me into a time-managing super-achiever.
