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kodalai- It always happens during vacations/down time after periods of great stress. Like, say, after working for several weeks at an increasingly frenzied end-of-contract job, packing up house and moving within three days, then being on the road for two weeks.
- I get nightmares/bad dreams. This only ever seems to happen when I am sick or getting sick. Interestingly enough, the most common theme in nightmares I get is that of contagion/propagation -- fighting against some faceless dark evil and knowing that unless every bit of it is destroyed, it will all grow back bigger than ever. (For example, in one memorable nightmare I opened a cupboard to find a puddle of black slime. I hurried to get it all into a trash bag, sealed it, and threw it out on the lawn. When I looked out the window, I saw it bubbling out of the bag and growing to devour the lawn.) It never really occurred to me to make the connection between these two things until recently.
- Once I realize I'm actually ill, I get into a contradictory-seeming cheerful, almost manic phase. After all, at least know I know what's wrong, and I can totally tough it out!
- After a day or so of feeling lousy, I'm in an emotionally fragile state where the stupidest minor incidents can make me feel absolutely miserable.
- I always think I'm better before I actually am; while I'm resting I feel fine, so I assume that I'm cured, get up to go do things, and feel awful again.
In non-illness related news, I made the trip from Austin to San Pedro and am safely ensconced in my new place. There was a minor meltdown (so to speak) outside of Junction, Texas when my radiator stopped working correctly -- a leak developed in the plastic part of the casing (so I'm given to understand) that spilled coolant fluid everywhere. I saw the coolant light and pulled into a tiny, TINY town (think one street and a general store with the water shut off due to drought) and bought a new thing of coolant fluid, noting the spreading pool of green-tinged liquid under my car with some trepidation. I filled up the reservoir and pulled out again... didn't even make it TOO the freeway before the light came back on. >_<
So I turned around, went back to the store, where the people very kindly let me rest in the air conditioning while waiting for a tow truck to arrive from Sonora, Texas (35 miles away.) By this time it was late enough that I had to get a hotel room. I spent the rest of the afternoon/evening mildly hysterical, convinced that the mechanic wasn't going to be able to fix it (what if he needed replacement parts? They stopped making Saturns years ago, and he was a VERY small mechanic) heightened by the anxiety that my cell phone battery ran down and I brilliantly had not brought my charger with me.
Fortunately everything worked out. The mechanic called me the next day (on the hotel phone) to say that he had fixed it. So I got back on the road, feeling somewhat paranoid about other parts of the car breaking down, but the rest of the trip went smoothly -- only a day behind schedule. And when I passed through El Paso (the first town after Sonora to have any kind of commercial sector to speak of) I bought a car charger, so now I have one, yay. Which is good cos I still can't find my wall charger.
THE SOUTHWESTERN US IS REALLY HOT. -_-
If you need my new address and I didn't get it to you in the first wave of emails, drop me a note and I'll email it to you. When I'm feeling somewhat less awful I'll attempt to get pictures of my new place; it really is a beautiful place and a beautiful area. Also, nightly lows of 62, daily highs of 78. SO THERE.
Just one box (mostly misc stuff that goes right to the closet, and decorations) left to unpack. Starting Monday, sick or not, it's time to start attending to car-related necessities and other chores... like finding a job.
At least I finally got my final paycheck in the mail. yay~! now they just need to send my stuck-till-the-end bonus. =(
- I get nightmares/bad dreams. This only ever seems to happen when I am sick or getting sick. Interestingly enough, the most common theme in nightmares I get is that of contagion/propagation -- fighting against some faceless dark evil and knowing that unless every bit of it is destroyed, it will all grow back bigger than ever. (For example, in one memorable nightmare I opened a cupboard to find a puddle of black slime. I hurried to get it all into a trash bag, sealed it, and threw it out on the lawn. When I looked out the window, I saw it bubbling out of the bag and growing to devour the lawn.) It never really occurred to me to make the connection between these two things until recently.
- Once I realize I'm actually ill, I get into a contradictory-seeming cheerful, almost manic phase. After all, at least know I know what's wrong, and I can totally tough it out!
- After a day or so of feeling lousy, I'm in an emotionally fragile state where the stupidest minor incidents can make me feel absolutely miserable.
- I always think I'm better before I actually am; while I'm resting I feel fine, so I assume that I'm cured, get up to go do things, and feel awful again.
In non-illness related news, I made the trip from Austin to San Pedro and am safely ensconced in my new place. There was a minor meltdown (so to speak) outside of Junction, Texas when my radiator stopped working correctly -- a leak developed in the plastic part of the casing (so I'm given to understand) that spilled coolant fluid everywhere. I saw the coolant light and pulled into a tiny, TINY town (think one street and a general store with the water shut off due to drought) and bought a new thing of coolant fluid, noting the spreading pool of green-tinged liquid under my car with some trepidation. I filled up the reservoir and pulled out again... didn't even make it TOO the freeway before the light came back on. >_<
So I turned around, went back to the store, where the people very kindly let me rest in the air conditioning while waiting for a tow truck to arrive from Sonora, Texas (35 miles away.) By this time it was late enough that I had to get a hotel room. I spent the rest of the afternoon/evening mildly hysterical, convinced that the mechanic wasn't going to be able to fix it (what if he needed replacement parts? They stopped making Saturns years ago, and he was a VERY small mechanic) heightened by the anxiety that my cell phone battery ran down and I brilliantly had not brought my charger with me.
Fortunately everything worked out. The mechanic called me the next day (on the hotel phone) to say that he had fixed it. So I got back on the road, feeling somewhat paranoid about other parts of the car breaking down, but the rest of the trip went smoothly -- only a day behind schedule. And when I passed through El Paso (the first town after Sonora to have any kind of commercial sector to speak of) I bought a car charger, so now I have one, yay. Which is good cos I still can't find my wall charger.
THE SOUTHWESTERN US IS REALLY HOT. -_-
If you need my new address and I didn't get it to you in the first wave of emails, drop me a note and I'll email it to you. When I'm feeling somewhat less awful I'll attempt to get pictures of my new place; it really is a beautiful place and a beautiful area. Also, nightly lows of 62, daily highs of 78. SO THERE.
Just one box (mostly misc stuff that goes right to the closet, and decorations) left to unpack. Starting Monday, sick or not, it's time to start attending to car-related necessities and other chores... like finding a job.
At least I finally got my final paycheck in the mail. yay~! now they just need to send my stuck-till-the-end bonus. =(
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Date: 2011-08-13 11:58 pm (UTC)We had like two days like that this summer and I spent both of them thinking OH GOD I COULD GET USED TO THIS
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Date: 2011-08-14 12:45 am (UTC)Your mom noticed this years ago.
You didn't bring your phone charger? I'm not going to make fun of you for that only because the experience is horrible enough.
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