a day of downers
Feb. 25th, 2006 01:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kodalaiDoes anyone else think that leasing our ports out to a company under Arab control and with possible terrorist ties is THE WORST IDEA EVER? Isn't it bad enough that Homeland Security restricts its port security to background checks of the workers and does virtually no physical security at all. Immigrants still sneak into the ports on the ships, for chrissake, because they don't have the manpower to police it. Oh and let's not forget that our economy is so ship-to-shelf consumer goods ravenous that a snafu at any one of our major ports could bring the U.S. economy to a grinding halt within a week?
I would ask WHY IS OUR PRESIDENT ENDORSING THIS?!!!? WHY? except I already know the answer to that, so let's go with HOW THE FUCK DOES HE THINK HE CAN RECONCILE THIS WITH HIS FOREIGN POLICY? PICK ONE BULLSHIT AND STICK WITH IT!
I won't even touch the South Dakota situation with a stick.Yes, the abortion rights bill is being smashed at the same time pharmacists are stonewalling on their intentions not to sell birth control. This is a lovely convergence.
Sometimes I think back on that comic (links would be appreciated) that jokes about having Cheney, Rumsfeld, and Bush et al. as a bunch of stoner hippies from the '60s, embarking on a decades-long quest to infiltrate the radical right from the inside and then completely destroy its credibility by pulling reverse psychology. And the more events went on and the American public continued to support them, the more frustrated they got and the more radical and unbelievable the shit they pulled to try and get the message across "HEY PPL: THIS IS BAD."
At the time, I laughed. Now, I find myself having to wonder.
So I just looked at my thesis schedule. At the moment, it's all clear and dandy, except that I've gotten to the end of February without having written a single coherent section of it. Ha. Hahahahaha. At this rate I'll be facing all 5 chapters + intro at just the time when final projects for my classes are due, and volunteer time is at its crunch!
Also, the more I get into my sources, the more sources I realize I need/could have. I can't afford to buy any more books damn it.
Tonight the college anime club was showing Tonari no Totoro, which is Miyazaki, so I thought I should go see it. This turned my usual 9 hr day into a 14 hour day. Which would have been fine, I got some thesis AND volunteer work done, except that it reminded me why I stopped going to anime club in the first place.
First, the guy who became president after Jeff et al. graduated is a terrible club president. A nice guy, but he's completely unorganized, unpunctual, and makes no effort at all to promote the club or get involved with the members. And his showing picks are usually pretty damn shoddy, considering the wealth of what I know is out there. When he first became club president, we usually got a dozen and some ppl for the series showings, twice that for the weekly feature films. Now? A grand total of five.
But what really made me stop going was the complete and total lack of any kind of social warmth at the anime club any more. I turned up at anime club forty-five minutes before the showing started, and stayed ten minutes after it ended. That's almost an hour of non-movie, chatting time. And during that entire time, not one person so much as LOOKED at me, said hello, or responded to ANYTHING I said. And I really just don't fucking need that. I got more than enough of it last year before things fell apart with Eliza and co. I do NOT need to take that kind of treatment. I have friends who will actually BE friends with me at the very least, acknowledge my EXISTENCE as a human being. And I do NOT need to waste time and effort on people who can't even treat me with basic courtesy, much less friendliness.
I find I'm more bitter about this now than I was at the time it all happened. I am tapping into a previously undiscovered well of bitterness, it seems. Back then I was very much just "enh, oh well, sometimes people don't just click." But now I seem to be coming back with a big hearty FUCK YOU.
I do actually have real friends, you know. I know what they're supposed to look like and act like. And I see no need to lie down and take that sort of treatment any more.
Tomorrow I'm going to UCLA to play in the Gothic game and hang out with my friends and bf. Definitely, definitely looking forward to it.
I would ask WHY IS OUR PRESIDENT ENDORSING THIS?!!!? WHY? except I already know the answer to that, so let's go with HOW THE FUCK DOES HE THINK HE CAN RECONCILE THIS WITH HIS FOREIGN POLICY? PICK ONE BULLSHIT AND STICK WITH IT!
I won't even touch the South Dakota situation with a stick.
Sometimes I think back on that comic (links would be appreciated) that jokes about having Cheney, Rumsfeld, and Bush et al. as a bunch of stoner hippies from the '60s, embarking on a decades-long quest to infiltrate the radical right from the inside and then completely destroy its credibility by pulling reverse psychology. And the more events went on and the American public continued to support them, the more frustrated they got and the more radical and unbelievable the shit they pulled to try and get the message across "HEY PPL: THIS IS BAD."
At the time, I laughed. Now, I find myself having to wonder.
So I just looked at my thesis schedule. At the moment, it's all clear and dandy, except that I've gotten to the end of February without having written a single coherent section of it. Ha. Hahahahaha. At this rate I'll be facing all 5 chapters + intro at just the time when final projects for my classes are due, and volunteer time is at its crunch!
Also, the more I get into my sources, the more sources I realize I need/could have. I can't afford to buy any more books damn it.
Tonight the college anime club was showing Tonari no Totoro, which is Miyazaki, so I thought I should go see it. This turned my usual 9 hr day into a 14 hour day. Which would have been fine, I got some thesis AND volunteer work done, except that it reminded me why I stopped going to anime club in the first place.
First, the guy who became president after Jeff et al. graduated is a terrible club president. A nice guy, but he's completely unorganized, unpunctual, and makes no effort at all to promote the club or get involved with the members. And his showing picks are usually pretty damn shoddy, considering the wealth of what I know is out there. When he first became club president, we usually got a dozen and some ppl for the series showings, twice that for the weekly feature films. Now? A grand total of five.
But what really made me stop going was the complete and total lack of any kind of social warmth at the anime club any more. I turned up at anime club forty-five minutes before the showing started, and stayed ten minutes after it ended. That's almost an hour of non-movie, chatting time. And during that entire time, not one person so much as LOOKED at me, said hello, or responded to ANYTHING I said. And I really just don't fucking need that. I got more than enough of it last year before things fell apart with Eliza and co. I do NOT need to take that kind of treatment. I have friends who will actually BE friends with me at the very least, acknowledge my EXISTENCE as a human being. And I do NOT need to waste time and effort on people who can't even treat me with basic courtesy, much less friendliness.
I find I'm more bitter about this now than I was at the time it all happened. I am tapping into a previously undiscovered well of bitterness, it seems. Back then I was very much just "enh, oh well, sometimes people don't just click." But now I seem to be coming back with a big hearty FUCK YOU.
I do actually have real friends, you know. I know what they're supposed to look like and act like. And I see no need to lie down and take that sort of treatment any more.
Tomorrow I'm going to UCLA to play in the Gothic game and hang out with my friends and bf. Definitely, definitely looking forward to it.
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Date: 2006-02-25 03:02 pm (UTC)Now... I'm not always real great with the internet abbreviation thing, but... doesn't that mean 'boy friend'? *pokes you* Have I missed a chapter of your life, have you been holding out, or does that mean something totally different, like... buffalo fritters? ^^;
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Date: 2006-02-25 04:28 pm (UTC)You've been holding out on me...
As for the SD situation... uhmm... any guesses as to who that anonymous $1 million donor to support the governer's anti-abortion campaign and potential legel defense could be?
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Date: 2006-02-25 05:28 pm (UTC)Also, I'm amused I'm not the only one who got down to 'bf' and went, "Hey, what? Cool!" Is this like Pond's "oh yeah, and J and I got married last week. So anyway..." post? :D
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Date: 2006-02-25 06:24 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2006-02-25 06:41 pm (UTC)Saw Bill Maher for the first time last night and he had some pretty good things to say about a lot of that. such as "Now there's reeeally nothing to do in South Dakota." i was amused. someone said something about, oh isn't it ok that one country can control something, to which maher replied something in the realm of, yeah but GB and UAE are not the same!! UAE was one of the 3 countries that supported the Taliban. Danny Glover, a guest, pointed out that we were one of the others, ha! zing.
sorry done now. so yeah, about that bf??
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Date: 2006-02-25 09:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-26 02:03 am (UTC)Having written a thesis, and since I'm making a career out of it, I'd be more than happy to help/edit/read what you've got/be a punching bag/whatever. Honestly. I *like* editing papers. It's what I want to do with my life.
Anything I can do to help my lucky Mikke who has helped me so much.
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Date: 2006-02-26 07:05 am (UTC)