babblings of a normal life
Nov. 15th, 2002 12:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kodalaiI had not gotten anywhere near enough sleep last night, and last night I stayed up until 4 writing a paper. (Well, okay, I stayed up until 3:30 writing the paper, then read Sunhawk fics until 4. I needed to unwind.) For the first time since coming to college, I cracked open the caffiene pills that the college bookstore oh-so-considerately gave us along with the purchase of any four textbooks. Cute, huh?
Have you ever known that feeling when something you know to be typical of the world, but has never applied to you personally, suddenly does? It feels at once strange, and strange because you know it's normal. I have never in my life taken caffiene in order to stay awake. I took one of the pills with dinner last night, and for a while I did not actually notice the effects, only that the tiredness was less of a distraction. Then at some point I found that my heart was going faster than normal, and I realized "Hey, there might be a reason for that."
Strange yet normal thing #2: I did Tai Chi excercises to calm myself down. By the time I was finished, I felt more awake and my heartbeat was back to normal. And I was thinking, "Hey, this is useful stuff." Which is kind of a "duh." But it was the first time I had used it for that purpose.
The other pill I took this morning as I woke up. And that was another strange experience. My father knows this in particular: I am a terrible zombie when waking up. I usually feel awful in the morning, and the clock just seems to go so fast. Yet despite being at least half unconscious, I drove myself to school every day for six months in high school, and ride my bike to class every day without incident through a mess of inattentive student drivers. It's like when I first wake up, there's another person in my body, who is not me, but takes care of everything I need to do, almost better than I could do when fully awake.
This morning, it was like I bypassed that wake-up person entirely, and it was... strange. The clock moved at normal speed. I felt clear-headed and quick, and yet... I usually try to be very aware of myself, and I definitely did not feel normal this morning. Though I had time for breakfast, it did not sit easily in my stomach; was this a side effect of the pills, or just the fact that I am terribly exhausted and even stimulants could not hide this fact?
But for only the third time this year, I was not late to class. I may have to become a coffee drinker. I hope not, it's nasty stuff. Tea?
In Japanese today we had to do one of those banal excercises where you make up a person, then get into little groups and introduce yourself to other people, asking small-talk questions like where do you live, are you married, do you have a car, what kind of job do you have, that sort of thing. I thought this was terribly boring, so I picked the occupation "baishunfu." I thought this perked up the conversation quite a bit, especially at the part where the married businessman told me his phone number and office hours.
The things I pick up from fanfiction...
The teacher was amused, though.
In other news, I am having money problems... I want to transfer to a new checkbook set, but my account statement does not reflect my checkbook balance. This is worrisome; I'm missing $140 somewhere. Maybe I failed to properly endorse one of my checks...
I did get my paycheck trouble straightened out, though. There was apparently a miscommunication as to which dates I had worked. It is resolved now.
All this and it's not even noon yet! *checks clock* Okay, so it's 12:03. Still...
I really should finish that paper. It's due in five hours.
Have you ever known that feeling when something you know to be typical of the world, but has never applied to you personally, suddenly does? It feels at once strange, and strange because you know it's normal. I have never in my life taken caffiene in order to stay awake. I took one of the pills with dinner last night, and for a while I did not actually notice the effects, only that the tiredness was less of a distraction. Then at some point I found that my heart was going faster than normal, and I realized "Hey, there might be a reason for that."
Strange yet normal thing #2: I did Tai Chi excercises to calm myself down. By the time I was finished, I felt more awake and my heartbeat was back to normal. And I was thinking, "Hey, this is useful stuff." Which is kind of a "duh." But it was the first time I had used it for that purpose.
The other pill I took this morning as I woke up. And that was another strange experience. My father knows this in particular: I am a terrible zombie when waking up. I usually feel awful in the morning, and the clock just seems to go so fast. Yet despite being at least half unconscious, I drove myself to school every day for six months in high school, and ride my bike to class every day without incident through a mess of inattentive student drivers. It's like when I first wake up, there's another person in my body, who is not me, but takes care of everything I need to do, almost better than I could do when fully awake.
This morning, it was like I bypassed that wake-up person entirely, and it was... strange. The clock moved at normal speed. I felt clear-headed and quick, and yet... I usually try to be very aware of myself, and I definitely did not feel normal this morning. Though I had time for breakfast, it did not sit easily in my stomach; was this a side effect of the pills, or just the fact that I am terribly exhausted and even stimulants could not hide this fact?
But for only the third time this year, I was not late to class. I may have to become a coffee drinker. I hope not, it's nasty stuff. Tea?
In Japanese today we had to do one of those banal excercises where you make up a person, then get into little groups and introduce yourself to other people, asking small-talk questions like where do you live, are you married, do you have a car, what kind of job do you have, that sort of thing. I thought this was terribly boring, so I picked the occupation "baishunfu." I thought this perked up the conversation quite a bit, especially at the part where the married businessman told me his phone number and office hours.
The things I pick up from fanfiction...
The teacher was amused, though.
In other news, I am having money problems... I want to transfer to a new checkbook set, but my account statement does not reflect my checkbook balance. This is worrisome; I'm missing $140 somewhere. Maybe I failed to properly endorse one of my checks...
I did get my paycheck trouble straightened out, though. There was apparently a miscommunication as to which dates I had worked. It is resolved now.
All this and it's not even noon yet! *checks clock* Okay, so it's 12:03. Still...
I really should finish that paper. It's due in five hours.
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Date: 2002-11-15 12:29 pm (UTC)I'm always up at two and three in the morning. I often notice you posting that early....
Watch the caffiene pills. I took some on a road trip when I was younger (boy that sounds familiar doesn't it?) and felt like I was having a heart attack. That just can't be good for you.
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Date: 2002-11-15 03:00 pm (UTC)Watch the caffeine pills is right... that stuff is VERY easy to get addicted to. I have a nifty little Mt.Dew addiction (not near the dosage as in the pills) and if I try to skip a day of drinking the stuff I have a screaming headache within about twelve hours and just feel like all I want to do is crawl in bed and sleep!